Mix Bag

I don't like to write about sad things in the same post in which I recollect happy things. But then, it is so depressing to think/write/read/think about a sad thing in isolation.

October is one of the busiest months in our family calendar, averaging more than 1 occasion every week!! So many flowers ordered, so many cakes delivered, loads of online shopping and greeting cards :)

Just for keep sake I will write the dates here -

2/10

7/10

9/10

10/10

14/10

16/10

24/10

27/10

S & I hosted a birthday dinner :) I cannot express how satisfying it was, to have a dinner, where I was not guest! First, formal, proper dinner party 'we' gave. (Things which make you feel instantly grown up #1*). It was full of fun and great food. Really a Fun-tasty-ic evening :) Thank you S, for having the heart!

And I was also taken for a shopping spree, found a couple of 'wanted' items on my list :) I think S would agree, I have almost forgotten - how to shop for self and/or how to shop without need :D I realised, yet again how impatient I am. Nothing apart from food seems to be worth spending hours on, not even women's fashion stores in a super-high end mall!

This was on the weekend.

During the following week, I heard the absolutely shocking news of one of our family acquaintances' sad demise. I was in tears, and shaking. It was horrible. This is the 3rd news. I hate it, absolutely hate it. It makes me sick. I had to put great effort in putting this behind me. But it is not gone, lingers on - like bad after taste. I want to completely, absolutely, fully forget it. I don't know why am I writing it. But I guess the strong emotions I felt needed to be said out, hence.

I know S will not like it - that I have wrote it in the same post - but that's the point - mix bag - life - happiness makes us work so hard for it, and sadness, cause of it; and the show must go on.

*PS: I think this list of 'Things which instantly make you feel grown up' is going to grow - hence the number!

Mission Accomplished

Months of trepidation, weeks of dilemma and days and nights of discussions! To go for it or not - but we did. He did it, through the prosaic assignments, strange examinations, boring classes and frustrations!

At the risk of sounding immodest, Thank You S, for doing it, for I know you did it for me :)

Extremely proud of you, well done!!

Grateful

Thank you God. Really - A big Thank You!

I want to do an exercise - of quantifying the positive and negative thoughts I have during a day or even during a conversation. I feel the need of doing so after meeting a friend today who's story made me realise how much time I waste in complaining rather than appreciating what life has bestowed on me so far. 

Only yesterday, for some brief minutes I let myself be a conceited person. My swollen head full of 'Oh I have done it all on my own', 'I work so hard for it' notions. I am so grateful to God, that within 24 hours I am humbled again. Thankful and Grateful, for all things I have got - hard work or not, the rewards cannot be taken for granted, ever.

Her difficulties are not hidden from me, and by all means she has never shied away from a fight. Such grit, such determination, such devotion to life, truly amazing. I am ashamed to have thought of her in any other way. Such terrible times, and yet, to have the heart to share. To have the attitude to fight another fight, to have the mind focused, still on the right things, to have the resolve to stay and persevere. I salute.

You have taught me a few things today, and I hope not to forget this in a hurry -

1. Money matters - but only to an extent

2. Will to win should stay, no matter what, no matter where